MY LIFE IS LEGIT ONE BIG FIG TREE.

Happy freakin Sunday hunnies. Let me tell you this week has been a weird one. Sooo many ups and downs but we keep moving! This week I have really been prioritising my health and well-being. I’ve made myself a goal of reading one book a month as I love reading so much but I felt like I wasn’t picking up a book as much as I would have liked last year. So here we go. I finished Daisy Jones and the Six at the end of last year and it was SO GOOD. Holy shit. The structure, the character’s, the storyline was just to die for. I highly recommend reading if you haven’t already. I’m currently on the Hunger Games trilogy and so far, I am INVESTED. I have seen the films but the book has sooo much more depth and added clues as to what will happen later in the story. LOVE. Anyway. Let’s delve in.

I recently came across The Fig Tree Analogy from the Bell Jar. In a nutshell it is the analogy that your life is like a fig tree, with so many different branches which have more branches and more branches etc. At the end of each branch is a juicy ass fig which essentially represents something that you want to achieve in life, like a route that you want to explore. However, as time goes on the branches snap and the figs fall to the ground, they can’t stay ripe forever. Ever since I was little, I have always had sooo many ambitions for my life. I remember always listing the careers I wanted to have, things I wanted to achieve. Let me give you a quick lil list:

-          Singer.

-          Actor.

-          Dancer.

-          Horse Rider.

-          Artist.

-          Author.

-          Magician (don’t ask)

-          I wanted to record my own album entitled Hit the Roof  (CRYING)

-          I would always imagine myself on Graham Norton talking about all my successes.

-          Film Director.

-          Presenter.

-          Fashion Designer.

Honestly the list is endless. What I mean to say is, I have always wanted so much all at once. I am literally twenty-one years old and I feel like I’m running out of time. Like I’m not doing enough to make my dreams a reality. Here’s the thing. My god, I have so much time. We all have so much time. There is no set deadline that we need to achieve things by. Let’s just ride that wave and see where it takes us. I have dreams of being a famous actress living in the Hollywood Hills but also owning my own café and bakery down in Cornwall but also being the next Florence Given, living in a big city with my own blog (lol) podcast, book and illustrations etc. Side note: if you haven’t read Women Don’t Owe You Pretty, please I urge to you. Or maybe working in publishing with a beaut flat filled with books, like my life literally is one big fig tree. I’m learning to take a step back for a sec and just appreciate every day for how it is. I’m sure all my childhood dreams will come true someday but right now let’s just enjoy life day by day. I have found being in my twenties a wild old ride but I honestly love it. Being young. Having freedom. Surrounding myself with the bestest friends ever! I have a lot to be thankful for.

Side note: I was gonna say I can’t wait to take a bite out of each juicy fig but I don’t like figs so…well you get the idea. I’ll say apple tree from now on, I think.

Have a great week! Lots of love and cuddles,

Lucy Xxx